Rihanna covers the February 2010 issue of W Magazine and speaks candidly about all she’s gone through this year. She reveals how hard it was to remain silent while going through her issues with Chris Brown and states:

?Not talking was a big thing for me. I?m glad I didn?t talk to people, because I was able to deal with things in my own way, without saying the wrong things or giving people the wrong impression.?

In speaking on her Rated R project, Rihanna reveals how used her pen to express conflicting emotions about leaving the abusive situation with Chris Brown. She explains why it’s still hard to listen to her own cd today:

?It?s still hard to listen to certain songs,? she admits. ?Certain ones I couldn?t even record?I?d keep pushing them back [on the schedule].? There was one track in particular she had a hard time facing. Called ?The Last Song,? it has lyrics that read like the final goodbye to a great love. ?When the label finally said we had 12 hours to turn in the album, I was like, Okay, I have to do it. I just drank some red wine, dimmed the lights, got in the booth and sang it.?

Rihanna proudly displays one of her many tatts. Her 13th tattoo was obtained just before the W interview. Located on the right side of her collarbone. It reads never a failure, always a lesson, but backward so she can read it when she looks in the mirror.

On why she feels that Chris Brown has insecurity issues:

?There were control issues, insecurity. When people are insecure they become very controlling and they can get very aggressive and in turn abusive. It doesn?t have to be physical. Like they would say bad stuff to you to make you feel lesser than them just so they would have control in the relationship. It takes a big toll on your emotions and on your everyday life. It changes you.?

On why she’s not offended by SNL’s Parody of Tiger Woods? Getting Beat By His Wife:

“Violence should of course be avoided at any cost, but Saturday Night Live is a show that finds humor in every serious situation, so it wasn?t offensive to me in any way”

On her growth as an artist and how her fans have grown with her:

?My fans have until now been really young, like five years old to just before adulthood. But now older adults are into my music. Straight men too! Men couldn?t really bump my last album in the car. With this album they can play it and still feel tough.?

She insists that throughout her whole ordeal, she has never once wished herself back in Barbados, living a quiet life.

?Oh no, I never fantasize about that,? she says without hesitation. ?Because if I were back there, I know I?d be fantasizing about all this.

Read full interview HERE.

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