Kenya Moore of The Real Housewives of Atlanta a.k.a. Ms. ?gone with the wind fabulous,? brought in her new year at the BWX Lounge in Baltimore, Maryland.

The former pageant winner copped her a few coins for 2013 by playing the official host for the venue?s annual New Years Eve party.

Moore reportedly earned her dough by partying with a few NFL players who came through and also posed for fan photos.

In addition to her side-gig, Miss Cry on Cue Miss USA 1993, made time to write a new blog entry, where she addressed her issues with fellow “newbie” Porsha Williams Stewart.

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Clearly, I did not start the fight in Anguilla, as upsetting as it was to hear someone antagonize you for being a bigger person and wanting to move past former conflict. The recapitulation of the event to Kordell was false and it?s clear by his reaction and questions that he knew it was bogus as well.? I have striven to be the bigger person throughout the trip. That is a fact, which is also why I chose to apologize for calling someone out on their name despite being attacked and insulted FIRST.

Although I am disappointed by my delivery, I stand firm on my message; the message being no one should be verbally abusive and personally attacked for trying to be cordial. No one should judge someone they don?t know.? No one should fight for the sake of fighting. No one should hit below the belt. I know better than to get caught in a web of childish rhetoric, and when you know better you do better.

I will do better.

That was sort of an apology right?? Kenya goes on to say…

Insecure women are quick to point out perceived physical imperfections of other women. I have purposely refrained from attacking someone and their looks, since beauty is in the eye of the beholder.

Despite the fact that I am an actual beauty queen, no one is perfect and I am not exempt. I suffer from acne when stressed and fight metabolism and gravity daily.? But I work with what I have.

Notwithstanding my attempts at keeping the peace and moving on from a horrendous silly fight laced with inflammatory name-calling, the incessant personal attacks never cease.

Hatefully calling me ?Miss Raisin Face, trash, tramp,? is a testament to one?s heartless evil spirit, lack of character, and lack of a good mirror themselves.? It was equally disturbing to see someone revel in my pain by laughing and taunting in their personal interviews, but it is telling as to the real person one is versus whom they pretend to be.

Ok… enough of that. *sigh*

Kenya then addresses Walter Jackson, who has totally managed to ruin her image by “playing” her disrespectful boyfriend on tv.? Moore thanks her BFF, Nene Leakes (who she looks up to by the way) for standing up for her in her time of need and also gives Phaedra Parks a mention for being a good sport after she flirted with Apollo.

I want to thank NeNe, who made it clear to Walter that it is cruel to lie to or mislead me if he was not going to propose. We all unmistakably heard what he said on the beach. At the dinner he was cold and mean to me the entire time. He came to start drama and that?s what he got. I want to especially thank Phaedra for comforting me during my humiliating ?non proposal.?

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For all of you who have judged Kenya and labeled her desperate. She says that regardless of what you see on television, she’s simply a woman who just wants to be loved.

Much has been made about me pressuring a man to marry me. Despite how it seems at times, I?m not crazy. I am, however, a hopeless romantic and appear anxious for marriage on the show to a man who clearly has his own agenda.

On the one hand Walter says there are ?3 days left and anything can happen? Anguilla would be a beautiful place to get married or elope.? I assure you my behavior is warranted. My mistake started when you rely on a man?s words and not his ACTIONS.

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Unfortunately, I put my trust into Walter and believed his intentions were genuine. His true feelings are being shown to me and everyone else whilst in Anguilla. My trust, respect, faith, and feelings are rapidly deteriorating when I see his duplicitous behavior at every turn. Of course the cameras don?t catch everything a couple discusses.

With that being said, our relationship issues will come to light on the upcoming shows. It can?t come and go fast enough for me. If Anguilla was paradise, this is hell to relive.

By the way, word on the curb is that Kenya has decided to follow Funky Dineva’s lead and turn all of her catchy phrases to cash by selling them on t-shirts.

Coincidentally, I think she should have saved her keystrokes and simply prepared a cute little baby tee for herself with the words “I was a Real Housewife of Atlanta, and all I got was this lousy t-shirt!”

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I honestly can’t see how any of this could be a good look for her “brand”…. 😯

What are your thoughts on Kenya’s long-winded explanations?

Read Kenya’s full blog HERE.