Fantasia has faced severe criticism in the media for her relationship with a married man and soon after CNN picked up the story, Fantasia tried to take her own life in a suicide attempt.
The question of why Fantasia’s story got so much press while Alicia Keys did not, brought about some deep thoughts on color issues and the “light skinned/dark skinned homewrecker debate” created much conversation on and off line.
Prior to her suicide attempt Fantasia faced a barrage of negative press surrounding her affair with Antwaun Cook and the lawsuit his wife Paula filed against the former American Idol.
Fantasia was asked by VIBE.com if she felt her darker skin and ethnic features had anything to do with the excessive media coverage she received about her personal life when compared to the media’s nearly mute opinions of the controversial love lives of other female entertainers like Britney Spears, LeAnn Rimes or Alicia Keys:
“Yes, I do. I really feel like it does. I was on Nancy Grace, CNN, every gospel station and in every magazine and every newspaper,” she told VIBE about the scandal before her O.D. “It was on. You would have thought I was the President or something.”
But the VH1 Fantasia For Real star says the response wasn’t a surprise because America’s challenged standard idea of beauty is a situation she’s been dealing with since her Idol days.
“I’ve battled and have had to deal with that before. Lord forgive me and I don’t want to offend anybody,” she says, “but when [I did Idol] it seemed like everybody there was Barbied out. Slim, long hair, light eyes, light-skinned. And here I come with my dark skin, full nose, short hair and full lips — it was hard.”
Fantasia says she even believes she’s passed over in the red carpet coverage spreads of many popular magazines for the same reason.
“They never put me in those magazines [featuring] the red carpet. Everybody there has long hair and everybody is bright-skinned, and I was like, ‘But wait a minute. They never gave me that.’ That bothered me,’” says the singer whose new album, Back To Me debuted as the number two pop album and number one R&B album in the country. “And then I tried hard to find people to dress me and they still would not put me there [in those magazines].”
Fantasia also said that she’s made peace with her beauty:
“One day I was like, ‘that’s okay’, but I had to get to that point,” says Fantasia. “ I am a dark-skinned, full-lipped sister and it’s all right.”